I want to talk about friendship. My friends are so important to me. I am so lucky that my main group of friends are from primary school and high school days. Friends I met as a child or a teenager and have grown up and gone through so much together.
This isn’t the case for everyone and I understand that a lot of friendships grow apart when you grow up. Some friends go down a different path, they want to travel and see the world and you loose touch, or they may get married or have babies early on and you’re out enjoying the single life. Our lifes change, they grow, they move on and don’t always manage to hold on to everyone.
I have so many great memories with two beautiful friends of mine who I met at primary school. I remember the day I met one of them like it was yesturday. Her mum, who was also my teacher at the school, brought her over to me and asked me to look after her on the first day of term. I felt trusted and protective of her and still feel that way to this day. She has been a huge rock to me over the years and I totally adore her! She is the most beautiful person inside and out.
The other primary school friend I have is now married and a Doctor. I was a bridesmaid at her wedding and sung for their first dance, it was so special to see her grow into such a stunning bride and wife. I remember when we used to talk about getting married and playing ‘mummies and daddies’ in the playground together. Although we don’t see each other that often, when we do meet up we always pick up from where we left off and have a lovely long catch up! she is so easy to talk too and always remembers funny stories of when we were kids.
I met another friend at my balett class when I was only 4. She was a year older and became a big sister to me. We spent every weekend together either at my house or hers. We had so many fun sleepovers, laughed tones and had so many hobbies together. We tried water skiing, ice-skating and even sung duets in competitions together. We had a really strong bond and although we have both changed and like different things now, we have that unconditional love that no one could ever break.
High school wasn’t my faveourite time as I got bullied and really struggled with friendhsip groups changing and evolving. I made friendships which turned sour and made my life hell, I also made friends with people who now I don’t speak too. Luckily I have a friendship which has grown so much stronger over the years and we’ve become bestest of friends. and made some amazing memories together. It makes the whole of my high school time worth it just so I could have a friend like her in my life.
As I’ve grown up my friendship cirlce has gotten smaller because time is so prescious, I want to use it wisely and spent time with those I really love. I totally believe in ‘quality over quantity’.
I had a small group of friends from Uni who over time started making me feel claustrophobic. They made me feel guilty if I didn’t do somethey they wanted, or paranoid I’d offended one of them. I felt uneasy, like I was walking on egg shells all the time. It was horrible. I never had anxiety issues before but this was really effecting me. My health deteriorated, I was always getting ill and no Doctor could understand why. I then went to a homeopath who was amazing! I saw her once a month, and with loads of talking and the help of herbal remedies she totaly cured me! She made me realise the reason to my bad immune system and reason to why I was always getting ill was all to do with the fact I was hurting, I felt anxious, I felt anger and upset and pain and never told these people how I felt. I didn’t SPEAK out!
I decided enough was enough and I made the tough decision to cut myself off from them. I knew it would hurt them, I knew it would confuse them but I had to do it for myself. I told them we had grown apart and I didn’t want to continue our friendship. I can honestly say I’ve never felt better. The fact I finaly stood up for myself and put myself first.
I think a lot of people stay in friendships and relationships that arn’t good for them. It can be really hard to break away, especially when you’ve had some really great times, made lovely memories and been through lots together. I wish these old friends all the best in life and want every bit of happiness for them. They made my Uni experience a great one and we did have some really fun times together but unfortunately it couldn’t last.
My friends have totally molded me into who I am today. I have been through so many ups and downs with them. They take my good and bad and love me regardless. They have been a rock for me through my tough times and made me laugh endlessly! I honestly don’t know what I’d do without any of them!! It’s just so important to hold on to those friendships that bring you love and happiness and let them grow!